Happy Anniversary, I Love You, But Please Shut the F**k Up!



Dear Al,

Although I love you, there are days that you annoy the crap out of me.

There are those moments when I wish you would just shut the f**K up and stop talking. Although you are one of the smartest people I know and most of the time I really enjoy our conversations, I really don’t care about your irrational ideas of prepping for a zombie apocalypse, government conspiracy theories and random scientific facts that you believe I need to know or I couldn’t possibly be happy. If you want to talk science, let’s talk about where diamonds come from. Actually, that reminds me. You owe me a trip to the jewelers. Should I have our children remind you as to why, you big dumbass? 

Oh and I really don’t want a permit to carry that gun you bought me for a “present” (gee thanks). I’d rather carry a gorgeous Chanel bag. You, however, would call that sick and twisted in your limited understanding of accessories.

There are days when I actually dream of killing you and it makes me smile. Really big. Those are the only moments that I don’t mind you blaring the First 48 at a pitch that could break the sound barrier. I get lots of ideas from that show. (People reading this – it’s just a satire – so don’t call the police)

Sometimes I imagine that you have a hearing aid as big as a tuba and I see myself shouting into it when you’re sleeping. Maybe you’ll hear me then. You certainly don’t have a problem hearing that twig snap under a deer hoof 500 yards away.

They say in marriage you need to take the good with the bad. I would actually like to know who really said that but, whatever. The bottom line is that although some days it actually seems as though we are worlds apart this is actually a good thing. We each bring a unique perspective and vibration (vibrations are good) to our relationship. And, although I sometimes have the aforementioned feelings, I cherish your innate goodness, kindness, generosity and the love in your heart. Each time I daydream of seeing your mouth covered in duct tape, I look up to find you have done yet another something wonderful for me and I thank God that I haven’t given in to my baser instincts.

Even with all of your faults, (we already acknowledged that I don’t have any but I’m sure you won’t remember that discussion) I love you endlessly. Thank you for the gift of yourself that you give me each day. I love you more each time I see you (especially when you first get your hair cut because you look so hot – sorry kids) I digress……..

Happy 18th Anniversary. Screw the haters who said we couldn’t do it. We belong to each other for all eternity.



So I wrote the above letter to my husband three years ago, on our 18th anniversary, and posted it on Facebook  Today, we are celebrating 21 years of marriage. We’ve actually been together for 26 years but it took a little while to get “some shit straightened out” before we actually got married.  (Let your imagination run wild here people)

Last year, on our 20th anniversary, we renewed our wedding vows but I didn’t get the new anniversary band I wanted.  Al acted all hurt because he didn’t think I wanted my original band anymore.

So fine, play that game! Pretending to be all sentimental. You think I can’t see through that! You just wanted to spend the money on the stupid bunker.

Are you kidding me?  $20,000 for a building that goes in the ground and doesn’t even have running water or a toilet? No way.  So, I didn’t get the ring, (at least that’s what he thinks) but he didn’t get the bunker. He did get a hole in the ground though. We bought grave sites. He can use his any way he pleases.

So now we’re at 21 years.  Sigh. It seems like it was just yesterday that we exchanged our vows.  I remember that I was all bent and twisted over this corset thing I had to wear under my dress. I thought it made me look fat.  Now, I wish I was that fat.  I will never forget the ladies at the corset shop. The shop had been “on the avenue” for years and so had the ladies!  The corset shop was where all the nice Jewish girls in the neighborhood went to get fitted for bras when we began to blossom. (if you weren’t Jewish then you went to Woolworth’s for your bras but, whatever) 

44 GG Lady:     Fat? What fat? You’re gorgeous. Look at that figure! Look at those boobies!

Me:                 (in my head) OMG! – what a yenta!

52 FFF Lady:    Look how young and firm! (she pushes my boob up just a little, takes off her glasses and peers a little closer at my cleavage. Oh my,  bubbelah, sweetie, you have a love bite! She nudges 44 GG with her arm and gives her a wink.  My Moishe, may he rest in peace, always gave me love bites when he was fershnikit from the peppermint Schnapps. (Jewish moonshine)  Oy, such memories. The rest of the time his schmeckle – not so firm like a ripe cucumber – more like a shriveled sea urchin.  But, he was a good man. He was a kvetch but he was a good man.  Did you know that my Moishe………………

Me:             Um, excuse me. I don’t mean to be rude but are we finished here?

So, where was I?  Yes, 21 years. I love my husband more each day.  He’s great at mopping floors.  (Who’s the bitch now? Yeh, that’s right)  And so what if I shake him when he’s snoring and then pretend I’m sleeping.  It can’t be good to lay on your back and gasp for air like that.  I love him too much to watch his body go through that trauma. Hehe. 🙂

We’ve faced many challenges over the years.  Much has changed. We’ve given each other the space to be our own person. We’ve grown separately but we’ve grown together – we journey side by side yet, at the same time, we journey as one.

I’m Jewish, he’s Catholic. I was Catholic. He’s Catholic. I was Buddhist; he’s Catholic, I was Hindu; he’s Catholic, I was a pagan and a little white witchy; he’s Catholic.  Hmmm……..do you see a pattern here?  He’s who he is and he’s allowed me to be who I am. Because of that mindset, there is nothing we can’t talk about. We don’t have arguments. We have constructive disagreements which allows us the safe space to be who we are.

There are many things we don’t agree on but so much more that we do. (like intelligent life outside of Earth)  I have to wonder though, since God is God of the Universe, are there Catholics in outer space and is Passover celebrated on the dark side of the moon?

These are the type of things I often ponder.

Hey, pass that vetiver back here, will you? (It’s legal and it’s good shit)


Much love,





Kabbalah and the Wheel of Life: We’re All Connected

Throughout history, many cultures have practiced honoring the four directions as part of their connection to well-being, nature and spiritual harmony. In the Native American culture, the four directions are placed within The Medicine Wheel, also referred to as the “Sacred Hoop.” Each cardinal direction, East, South, West and North, hold the lessons of physical, emotional and spiritual balance. Symbolism is woven through each one in the form of colors, animals and elementals.

The Medicine Wheel is also known as “the wheel of life” where there is no beginning or end.  It represents a way of living that is always evolving and transforming.  By studying and calling in the four directions, we can begin to uncover our struggles so that our intentions and prayers can be realized.

“the medicine wheel shows us that we are all connected and shows us the intricacies of the interwoven threads of life and what our part in it all is.”

When life calls for a ceremony to open sacred space, such as prayer, ritual or meditation, the four directions can be invoked and become the sacred ground in which to do our spiritual work. By opening sacred space, permission is being asked from spirit to perform a ceremony in that space.

“within sacred space we have extraordinary spiritual assistance available to us. When we call within sacred space, the Universe conspires on our behalf.”

The history of the medicine wheel and the four directions varies within Indigenous cultures all over the world. Each culture honors the core belief that all things on earth are living and all things are interconnected. Whether the four directions are invoked through ceremony or daily living, there is a deep reverence and respect for the cycles and mysteries of life.

The wheel typically begins in the East, which is the place of the rising sun, the dawn of a new day, new beginnings and the Spring.  The East brings newness, and fresh starts. The East shines light in places where there was once darkness. Here you will find illumination and inspiration. The East is the element of air. It is the place where the eagle, hawk and condor live. In the East, we are able to gain a distant perspective on our lives; to see far into the future and understand what the best direction we are to take.  The East relates to childhood, adolescence, and correlates to the archetype of the teacher.

Next on the wheel is the South. The South symbolizes high noon, the element of fire and Summer. It is here that we learn about celebration, innocence, and travel. We dance our dance, sing our song, and share our existence with others.  Whereas In the East we have gained insight and understanding into our lives, it is in the South where we share that understanding. It is here we learn the lessons of the heart. Coyote, wolf and rabbit dwell here. The South relates to early adulthood and correlates to the archetype of the visionary.

The West is the dusk, the element of water and Autumn. It is in this place that we begin our journey inward to reflect on the expansiveness and extroversion of the East and South. The West is the place where we look within. Here we are shown the unhealthy patterns that we must let go in order to become who we truly are. This is the lesson of the trees who, in Autumn, drop their leaves to nourish the Earth once again. Bear and Crow reside in the West.  The West represents a time of great emotion as we slow down and gather ourselves for the winter ahead. The West relates to adulthood/middle age and correlates to the archetype of the healer.

The final turn on the medicine wheel is the North. The North is the night, the element of Earth and the Winter. The North is the place of nothingness, where we return to the Great Mystery to receive our vision which began in the East.  The North is the place of the dreams; the day dream, the night dream and the life dream. This is the where we dream deeply in order to envision our life purpose and who we truly are. Ancient elders and wise ones live in the North, but we must be able to open ourselves to receive their wisdom. The buffalo dwells here.  The owl and other nocturnal animals reside here as well. The North relates to elder-hood and correlates to the archetype of the warrior.

In the Book of the Zohar, (Kabbalah)  the four basic elements (air, fire, water and earth) are mentioned, as they refer to the parallels between these elements, the four corners of the Earth and the four ministering Archangels; Raphael, Guardian of the East, Michael, Guardian of the South, Gabriel, Guardian of the West and Uriel, Guardian of the North. These angels are also referred to as the Guardians of the Gateways.

The Holy One created Four Cardinal Directions in the world – East, South, West and North. East, from where the light shines forth into the world…..As the Holy One, blessed be He, created the Four Cardinal directions and four standards corresponding to them, so also did He set about His throne, Four Angels – Raphael, Michael, Gabriel and Uriel.

 – Midrash Rabbah, Numbers 2:7-10

Kabbalah is an ancient wisdom that reveals how the universe and life work. Kabbalah literally means “to receive” and is the study of how to receive fulfillment in our lives. Kabbalah is not a religion but a blueprint for living in order to become closer to God.

In Kabbalah, the Star of David symbolizes the six directions of space (East, South, West, North, Above and Below) plus the center,which is God. The six points symbolize that God rules over the Universe and protects us from all six directions.  How beautiful is that?

You see those triangular shapes?  They are the actual alchemical symbols for the four elements.  Put them all together and you get the Star of David. Fascinating, right?  I thought so.

So tell me, what do Native Americans (not to mention Peruvians, Celts and others) and, ancient Jewish people from two complete and separate parts of the world have in common?  God.  One God. We are all connected my friends. This is all part of the Great Mystery.

I have to tell you, once, when I was a kid, I saw a lady in the synagogue during the High Holidays. She was dripping in turquoise and gold. She was wearing some kind of hat with feathers sticking out all over the place. I know she thought she looked stunning, but to me, she looked like she was wearing a small turkey on her head.  Well, that’s what came to my mind anyway.  It was Yom Kippur so I was fasting and was ravenously hungry. That hat was starting to look good……… but anyway…………that’s the closest thing I’ve ever seen to commonality between Jews and Native Americans. 🙂

I have begun incorporating the invocation of the four directions into some of my own spiritual practices. I create a protective circle/sacred container around myself with my selenite wand and then reverently call in the quarters (directions). Instead of “create a circle”I could say “cast a circle” but then some of you would probably get all nervous and jittery and think I’m a witch and shit like that.  I know “casting circles” can have a negative connotation.

The truth is that circles are actually cast (or created, if you prefer) for protection from negative energies. I usually create a circle/sacred container around myself while doing any type of spiritual work, especially readings and meditation. Just for the record, I have nothing at all against witches. I know quite a few witches.  Besides my ex mother-in-law, may she rest in peace, pu, pu, pu, witches are wonderful people who only want to bring light, love and healing into the world. There are all kinds of witches, even Christian witches. No lie. Google it.

I am open to all religions and beliefs but I don’t mess with that dark and twisty stuff. No dead chickens on my altar. Nuh uh. Not me.

Yes, I said “altar.” Nothing to get all freaked out about. Altar is synonymous with shrine, sacred space, hallowed space; holy space.   I have several altars in my home. One for healing, one for manifestation, one to celebrate the moon, one to honor and work with the nature spirits and one for holidays of all faiths.  I have crystals out the ying yang (but I still NEED more).  They bring beautiful energy to my home and to the sacred spaces within my home.

So how did a nice Jewish girl from Philadelphia get to this place? And, I do mean really nice Jewish girl. In fact,  I was a virgin until I got married. Okay, you got me on that one but still, a nice Jewish girl at heart.  Now I’m at the point in my life where I would rather have crystals than shoes.  That’s just blasphemy where I come from.  I’ve even thought of selling one of my Tory Burch bags for this awesome shamanic journey crystal generator that is calling my name.  Some times I don’t even know who I am anymore.  🙂 

For those of you who have asked, my husband, Al, is fine. His latest thing is buying used spiritual books on Ebay and Amazon.  Right now, he’s going down the Kabbalah rabbit hole with me so he’s buying every book he can find.

Al: “It was only .99.”

Me: “Yeh, but honey, the shipping is $12.00 and you don’t even read them.”

He hands me a yellow highlighter.

Al: “You read it and just highlight the good parts for me.”

Al goes to church every Sunday but gets daily emails from “Ask the Rabbi” or some shit like that.  I’ve even caught him kissing the mezuzah on our door post while making the sign of the cross.  He’s either a little conflicted or covering all of his bases – not sure which.

But, even though I’m Jewish I shouldn’t complain. Al is a good man. He never tells me not to buy MORE crystals or MORE herbs and essential oils or take yet ANOTHER class.  Ha! Probably because he doesn’t know how much I spend.  You see, I have this gimmick going with the checkbook.  In the registry, I simply enter…………oh crap, I can’t share this here! Sorry. Private message me and we’ll talk.

I leave you with this thought:

A necessary condition for spiritual elevation is a continuous quest for a bond with the Creator.

(Rambam, Ilchot Yesodot Torah)

Love and Blessings,











Your Inner Octopus


Your Inner Octopus is a guest blog post from a good friend and mentor, Hope Gold. She is brilliantly amazing and I love her. We have never met in person and although I hope to look into her beautiful eyes one day, it really isn’t necessary, for I have already looked into her soul.

Stop by her website. You will love her too. http://www.onemountain.net/index.html

Your Inner Octopus totally and completely resonated with me. It gave me chills.  I was inspired to look up the octopus as a spirit animal guide and I immediately knew that I found some much needed magic and medicine.  Interestingly enough, the octopus has eight arms which coincides with my life path number, 8. How’s that for validation!  Much introspection is on the way!

Hmmm. if only my husband, Al, had eight arms……..just think of the possibilities………Oh stop! Does everything have to be sexual with you people? I just meant that he would be more efficient at um, house cleaning. 🙂  Sheesh.

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Your Inner Octopus

A couple of years ago I had a dream about an octopus.  The octopus was the “pet” of a woman who happened to be dating a friend of mine.

She took the octopus out of the ocean water and put it in a Tiffany diamond blue box.  She tried to put the lid on the box, but wrestle the lid around as she might, that octopus kept moving one arm, then another, then another, in protest, popping out from underneath the lid…..until eventually she let go and walked away because……you can’t contain an octopus.  It is too wily, too busy with too many arms to pin down, too intelligent, too independent.  Soon after this dream, in real time, my friend ended that relationship.  No surprises were had, by anyone. At all.

At this moment, we are all octopuses (not octopi, dang it, I looked up the correct plural form and it’s not like cacti, much to my grammatically fixated chagrin) learning to use our tentacles.  Well, except that tentacles aren’t really tentacles regarding octopuses.  They are actually called arms.  Tentacles are specific to cuttlefish and squid.  Just so you know.

So let’s reframe now and say we are all octopuses working with our eight arms.  And those arms have a number of suction cups on them, that are quite perspicacious, responsive, and intuitive with their environments.  Octopuses move around in a very moderate, calculated fashion, using all of their arms congruently to reach their goal.  They have been known to leave their tanks (if open), crawl around the floor in the open air, and even open jar lids.  If they lose an arm, another one grows back.  Neurons and “thinking” receptors that are usually found only in the brain, operate all along the arms of an octopus.  Thus, octopuses holistically think, feel, and utilize every part of their bodies while alive.  If we think of human beings on an energetic level, where mind, body, and spirit are interconnected and operating on multiple levels all at once, we can compare ourselves in many ways to octopuses.

(I read once that these fascinating cephalopods aren’t really of this world.  They may be alien in origin.  But then again, the same could go for humanity, says the woman who’s seen Sirians in her backyard.  But I digress.)

So…….how are we using our arms these days?  THAT, my friends, is the true question.

As usual, I tend to write when I am inspired, based on what appear to be universal themes emerging with friends, clients, and colleagues.  Lately the message that continues to float in is about universal alignment.

“Universal alignment” is a beautiful phrase that refers to aligning, or lining up all facets of our existence in such a way that they are concurrent.  Vibrationally, we would ideally want our outer lives and our inner world to match.  Show consistency.

So often they don’t.

Much like the octopus, we have “arms” that are energetic trails moving out from us to different areas of our lives.  Our energy traces out to work, family, friends, home life, hobbies, even social networks.  Often those trails….our “worlds”…..are operating on different frequency bands.  One area of our lives may feel really productive and clear.  Another area of our lives may be problematic.  Yet another area of our lives may be downright messy, and need a complete overhaul.

You know what is what in your world(s).  You know.

The energies over the past few days, as honed and refined by Saturn, have given us pause to feel into our personal octopus arms and meditate on where they stand at this moment for us.

What needs tweaking?  What needs a rebirth?  What needs a brave push towards that thing….that THING that down deep makes your heart sing?

When we commit to going into universal alignment, we recognize and own that all of the facets of our existence should vibrationally “match.”  You want to, just like the octopus, move intentionally and mindfully in your lives with all eight arms in motion, working together in sync towards a particular goal.  The goal is specific to your life path and life themes, of which we ALL have as souls.

For example, over a decade ago, my work life was full of meaning and growth.  I was creating religious education programming in a compassionate, enlightened church association, and healing much of my childhood’s dogmatic programming.  I was using the skills I learned as a Peace Corps Volunteer- analyzing a community’s needs and then crafting organized programming to fill those needs.  I was juggling this with young motherhood, and in those areas, I felt confident.  I felt I could “shine.”

However, I did not “shine” at home.  My home life was rocky.  It was full of arguments, irrational behaviors, emotional abuse.  Certain arms of my personal octopus were moving in directions that aligned with my perceived “purpose.”  Yet these other interpersonal relationships did NOT align.  Not even close.  In order to live in a consistent fashion, on all levels, something had to change.  Something had to GO.  And you can guess, I’m sure, what I released.

I packed my portion of the household back then, put my daughters in the car, and headed to South Carolina from Virginia, not knowing how my work would line up or how this would play out.  I trusted that if I followed my heart, and believed that all would align, somehow, everything would be okay.  God/the universe/my guides/ whomever would assist and have my back. And it did align.  And it was okay.

Universal alignment is not a skip through the daisies.  It can be exciting, scary, painful or sorrowful.  It depends on where you’re out of sync in your own sphere, and how much courage you can muster to change it.

And here’s the thing- if you are afraid to take a long look at these energetic arms that are your story- if you hunker down and resist change………it’ll come for you anyway. (in astrology that’s usually prompted by a Uranus transit) Often when it does, it’s WAY more difficult than if you had met it head on with a pure heart and a dedicated spirit.

Universal alignment, spiritual harmony, is your inherent soul right.

Let me repeat:  it is your INHERENT SOUL RIGHT.

You have the right to follow your dreams.

You have the right to listen to your heart.

You have the right to honor your emotional processes.

You have the right to live fully.

You have the right to love madly.

You have the right to take risks.

You have the right to say NO or YES.

You have the right to be fully, unapologetically you.

Now go count those statements.  There are eight of them.  Just like an octopus has eight arms.  Pray.  Meditate.  Feel what areas of your life resonate and are on par with who you know deep down you ARE.  Then feel which areas of your life are “off” or not quite who you are or where you want to be.  Pray to go into alignment.  The universe will step in and assist you in doing so.

Then be ready.

‘Cause things may shift.

But that’s okay.

Because you’re primed.  You have been for a while.

And as always, I love you deeply.

Hope Gold 2017



Until next time,

Blessings  of love and light,



Humans, Star People or Something Else?


Why am I here?  I’ve often asked myself this question when I was getting stoned but I haven’t smoked pot in a very long time.  Now I just ask the question because I want to know why God put me on this Earth to go through all the crap I’ve lived through.

But, speaking of being stoned, did you know that just about all (maybe even all) native cultures smoked or drank some kind of plant medicine for healing or, to transport their consciousness in order to commune with who or what they called God? I don’t know about you but I find this fascinating. People have been getting high since the beginning of time.  People have also been debauched since the beginning of time. And gay. And thieves. And prostitutes.

Just read the history of the world.  Just read the Bible. It’s all there.

It makes me crazy when people say “what is this world coming to?”  I know I was a dirty, drunken slut (actually “whore” sounds more genteel, right? – I hate to offend)  in a past life but that doesn’t mean I didn’t believe in God or deserve His love.

I really need to stop digressing when I write. Sometimes it even annoys me……………..

Some would say we chose to come to Earth. Really? From where?  This just begs another question……….who are we and where are we from?

Okay, we know we’re humans – well we have human bodies anyway.

I don’t particularly feel like a human.  Humans suck – not all humans suck all of the time. But, a good majority of human sucks most of the time.

That’s been my experience. I hope yours has been better.

I have always felt like I was from “somewhere else.”  Ever since I can remember, I never felt like I belonged here. There is nothing worse than feeling out of place – especially when you’re a kid.  I covered up those feelings with a wise ass attitude but deep inside I was really hurting.  I was longing for something but I didn’t know what that something was.

I would look up at the stars and wonder what was really out there.  I was fascinated by the idea of other inhabited planets and galaxies.  My favorite show all those years ago was “Lost in Space.” It seemed perfectly normal to me to have a robot for a friend. ( but I did think that Dr. Smith was a traitorous pansy ass)

This much I know.  We all come from God or Source. We are all born of Earthly bodies. We all have a soul although our birthplace varies.  Some of us were born in other worlds or realms. Some were born on another planet or star. We were chosen to be sent to Earth or made the choice to come here to help raise the vibration of the planet.  Our purpose is to assist in illuminating other souls and to help them understand the meaning of life which, most of us are still trying to figure out.

Are you still with me or did you get the x out of here?  Okay. Good. I’m glad you stayed.

If you can accept this you must be able to accept the idea of past lives, reincarnation and ancient civilizations. How could only one planet in the whole Universe (now called Multiverse) be gifted with life?  Are we so full of our own egos that we can’t see that?  Do we not dare think so openly because of a particular religious affiliation?  If you are Jewish this doesn’t change the Old Testament stories. Nor does it change the Jesus story of the New Testament.  God is not limited or defined to Earth alone. God is God of a vast and unlimited Multiverse.  Let that penetrate for a moment or two.

Mainstream media usually depicts “extra terrestrials” (I hate that term so I am going to use the term “star people”) as being frightening and ugly. We are taught to fear that which we don’t understand. (Just wait until those UFO government files are declassified people!!!)  How else can we see these beings except as scary and manipulative if, as humans, we can’t even accept ourselves as being equal to one another?

Throughout ancient history, there are many, many examples of how the star people integrated with societies throughout the world. The biggest example that comes to mind is ancient Egypt.  Have you seen some of those hieroglyphs? Take a good look at the ones with the wings in the picture here.  You will never convince me that they are birds. The Egyptians knew how to draw birds. These, my friends, are not birds.  They are “ancient astronaut vehicles.”



Don’t go yet! 

I promise I took my medicine.

Just open your mind to the idea that throughout history our societies were influenced by other worldly beings.

The pyramids of Giza are positioned in a way that is more than coincidental. Three pyramids perfectly match with the stars in Orion’s belt. Even the size of the pyramids are related to the brightness of the stars. Two pyramids are identical with the third being half as high as them just as two of the stars are equally bright with the third half as bright. The pyramids are even positioned in an almost perfect line with the North Magnetic Pole.

Coincidence? Nah. This positioning of the pyramids would have required massive knowledge in science, geometry, and astronomy at the very least. How did an ancient civilization acquire such knowledge?

Ancient Egypt is only one example. Look at the ancient technology of the Mayans, the Aztecs and the Incas.

It still remains a mystery as to how Machu Picchu was built. The stones in these amazing buildings were not sealed with mortar.  The stones were cut so precisely, and wedged so closely together, that a credit card cannot be inserted between them.  Where did this technology come from? Peru is a seismically unstable country. What I find particularly fascinating is that Machu Picchu was constructed on top of two fault lines. When an earthquake occurs, the stones in the buildings are said to “dance;” that is, they bounce through the tremors and then fall back into place. Without this building method, many of the best known buildings at Machu Picchu would have collapsed long ago. Fascinating, right? How long did it take our modern architects to come up with this engineering?

Stories of intelligent beings visiting our planet from the cosmos date back to the beginning of time, and span throughout many different native cultures at various points in human history. Antiquity is filled with stories of beings, materials and flying objects that, according to modern day thinking, should not have existed. Maybe these people were just stoned. Or maybe they saw these things because they were stoned and their unconscious minds were open to receive.

This Multiverse is full of beautiful and magical mysteries. Open your eyes. Open your hearts to the possibilities.  Let go of what you’ve been taught and embrace what you feel. The possibilities are endless.  I believe we already know these mysteries but have “forgotten” them as we’ve transcended lifetimes.

This brings me to the 10 extra DNA strands we have in our body that medical science calls “junk DNA”.  No way. Our creator is way too intelligent to have left unconnected pieces inside of us.  At some point in the evolution of man, these strands served a purpose. We just don’t remember what it is. But, we are starting to remember.  We are starting to evolve as spiritual beings.

Recent information has come to light which reveals that the higher purpose of this so-called “junk DNA,” is to support a “multidimensional consciousness.”  This “consciousness” is actually our natural state of being. Realigning and reconnecting with our creator is how we can attain that state and even reconnect those DNA strands. When we are multidimensional, our physic abilities are reawakened and we develop an ability to connect on the etheric level. This is where we can live in multiple dimensions at once. We can hear, see and communicate with others in these dimensions.

Think I”m nuts yet? Ask Al.  When I come home he doesn’t ask how I am today, he asks who I am today. Sometimes I will ring the Tibetan bell outside of my door to clear the energy before I enter.  Other times, I will touch the mezuzah on my door post and kiss my fingers.

For those not born into one of the twelve tribes of Israel, the mezuzah, which is placed on doorways in Jewish homes, holds a piece of parchment containing two selections of verses (Deuteronomy 6:4-9 and Deuteronomy 11:13-21. This is the Shema prayer which expresses the unity of God. The verses start with “Hear, O Israel, the Lord is our God, the Lord is One,” and continue with the commandment to love God with all of your heart. The parchment is placed in a small encasement and affixed on doorposts of the home. The tradition in many Jewish homes is to place one’s hand on the mezuzah when passing by. Some kiss the hand that touched it.

Sometimes I just say thank you God or thank you Jesus or Mother Gaia (Mother Earth) for providing the things I need. Sometimes I thank Lord Ganesha for clearing obstacles from my path. Sometimes I thank Quan Yin for the beautiful love she brings to my heart. All of those and so much more are magnificent. Can you give me a good reason why I shouldn’t experience all of it?

The point for me is that I am all religions and all religions are in me. I am the Universe/Multiverse and the Universe/Multiverse is in me.  There are many paths to God and God has many names. For myself, I have shed the idea of defining myself to a particular religion or belief system.  I actually love learning about all paths to God; all paths to the Light. Each story is beautiful and amazing in it’s own way.  It doesn’t matter to me if I get to God by the stairs, the escalator or the elevator. I am only interested in getting there so why not experience all of the amazing ways to know and understand God?  Of those various paths, take what resonates with you and let the rest of what you don’t need or want, go. Just let it go.

We were taught that religious groups had to behave in certain ways or do certain things or you couldn’t belong to their affiliation. Says who?  Really, tell me.  Says who?  Is God actually the CEO sitting behind some great big Christian, Jewish or Hindu desk somewhere? How do we know one story is true and another is not? That one way is the path to salvation and the other is the path to some kind of hell? Did God actually cite all of the individual “laws” or “rules” that each religion has?  Tell me. Show me.

Many say that the Bible is God’s Word. Perhaps it is but it is also full of contradictions.  God didn’t actually write the Bible, print it out and send it to each individual in the world by UPS. (I have nothing against Fed Ex , btw)  It was humans professing to hear the Word of God who actually wrote the Bible. How do we know they heard God correctly?  How do we know that they correctly interpreted what God was saying to them?

Did you ever think that maybe Adam and Eve looked like apes, thereby giving us the story of creation in both the biblical and scientific sense?  Perhaps they were ape like. Perhaps God gave them fur because they didn’t have clothes. Can science and religion both be right?

Did you ever wonder why in the Old Testament God was portrayed as a “vengeful and jealous God” and then one day he just changed His mind? Just like that He went from extreme vengeance by  proclaiming “an eye for an eye” to espousing “love the neighbor”?  If that resonates with you that’s okay but it doesn’t resonate with me. I believe there is much, much more to the story. I believe there are things that we will never understand as long as we walk on this Earth. I also believe that star people are somehow involved in the whole mystery. Call me crazy. It wouldn’t be the first time and I’m sure it won’t be the last. 🙂

In my opinion, we can’t rely on another person’s experience of religion or beliefs. We have to find out for ourselves.  Why don’t we let ourselves experience this freely?   The reason? Fear.  Fear is what keeps us tied to a certain belief system. Fear that if we don’t follow what we were taught then something bad will happen to us and we will not be in communion with God. Well, guess what people…….God is inside each and every one of us and if you look for the light you will find it.  The light will illuminate your path as you walk it and you will begin to understand your own personal truth. You will come to know how you were evolved. where you came from and possibly, if you listen closely enough, where you’re going.
















Standing in My Spiritual Truth

Trying to stand in spiritual truth isn’t easy. Do you know how many times I’ve scrapped this blog and started a new one?  Getting back to writing after being away for almost a year is difficult – especially because I don’t know what to say to you after I made the last apology for my absence.

I’m not making an excuse for being away. I like to think of it as more of an explanation.  Writing this blog, I found myself trying to work more for others by pushing myself to put out more information, only to have situation after situation arise in my life to slow me down and keep me from having the time to do the things I wanted.  I began to feel like I was a slave to the blog and I became resentful every time someone asked when I would be producing the next piece. The more I felt that way, the more I resisted writing it.

Eventually I took the hint and realized that working on myself is more important than anything else. Sharing the observations and what I had learned would help people more than just working hard trying to think of content that would be both interesting and humorous for people.  I created this imbalance in myself with the self-induced pressure to be “live” even when I wasn’t in the highest integrity. Writing was making me angry, anxious and resentful. How’s that for honesty?

When I started writing this blog I intended it to be about my spiritual journey so I feel like it’s important for you to know that these “leaves of absences” I have taken have been part of that journey. What I realized was, that parts of my journey were not necessarily going to be unfold in time for me to write about them every few weeks. I didn’t want to make things up just to put content on a page and call it good. I want what I give you to be honest and real.  That’s just me standing in my truth.

Forcing myself to write about something every couple of weeks just wasn’t working for me. Sometimes there is a flurry of spiritual activity in my life and I can find a million things to write about. Other times, my guides just want me in quiet contemplation. On days like those, I couldn’t raise Abraham Lincoln in a séance even if someone gave me a $1,000 Nordstrom gift card. (I would head for the shoe department)

Spirit is constantly making “adjustments” in my life. Some of these I can share with you and others I just can’t. No, I’m not afraid or embarrassed to share. Hell no.  It’s just that many of these situations involve other people who have been sent to me for help and I don’t intend for this blog to be a rag mag.

It has always been my opinion, (and we all know that I have a hard time keeping my opinions to myself) that if someone is serving as a spiritual teacher, then that person should be able to share their own reality and learning experiences rather than to copy and share other people’s experiences.  I didn’t want to be that “fake” person. Sure, I could make stuff up and keep you entertained but that’s not what I wanted. I wanted my experiences to be truthful and hopefully be of value to you in some way.

As the “spiritual revolution” broadens, and things like reiki healing, crystal healing and energy work become more popular, I find that more and more people are just jumping on the band wagon to make a buck. Even though I’m Jewish, far be it from me to be judgmental but seriously, this bugs the crap out of me.

It’s not enough to just say you are gifted or are a healer. Anyone can call themselves a reader, reiki practitioner or crystal healer.  Sure it’s easier to just play a role than it is to BE who you say you are.  To really stand in integrity you have to BE THE GIFT in service to others. This isn’t a 9 – 5 job. It’s a way of life and you’re on call 24/7.  And helping someone else 24/7 has been a priority for me this last year. It’s kind of amazing the things you can learn about yourself from a four year old stranger.  God shows up in your life in many forms.

I believe that anyone can do any kind of energy work.  We all have the gift. But, there is a right way and a wrong way to go about it. Again, not judging, I’m just standing in my own truth.  At the end of the day if you’re selling spirituality as a lie because you never took the time to actually start the journey and do the work well then, you aren’t going to be released from the 3d (3rd dimension) reality anytime soon.  You see, God, the Universe, Source, whatever you call “It” knows your true heart. Besides, you can only hide from yourself for so long. Plus, I wouldn’t want to be you when Karma comes knocking on your door. Lying to people and pretending to be something you’re not when someone is genuinely seeking your help, is really bad juju.

One of the traps that I always try to avoid getting into is doing the complete opposite in my own life than those things that I teach.  Unfortunately, as long as we live in this 3d world this is not going to be easy for me or anyone else.  It’s hard for me to keep my big Jewish mouth shut. I know this about myself and embrace it. Sometimes things come out of my mouth before my brain even processes it.  But, if I do call someone a dickhead or give them the finger, I don’t need someone to point out my shortcomings.  I can already see them for myself. And the moment those nasty words are out of my mouth or my finger is in someone’s face, I’m already working on trying to control those behaviors so I don’t do it next time.  I’ll let you know when (if) I succeed. Ha.

I do have moments when I float from 3d to 5d and those moments are coming more and more. If you think I’m bat shit crazy well, all I can say is that I’m in good company.  Science has proven that our Universe is actually a Multiverse. Check out String Theory and Quantum Mechanics. Mind blown.  Please just don’t ask me to explain it.  Math class wasn’t my favorite. I was too busy writing my really, really, really mean math teacher’s obituary for a journalism class assignment.  Oy, was she pissed when she found out. Journalism teacher was a snitch. Science class wasn’t much better.  One of the more knowledgeable teachers I had would float a rubber ducky in his petri dish for our amusement.  That’s what happens when you go to public school.


I spend more and more time in pursuit of the esoteric; of the unknown, of spirit. I dance to the beat of my own drum and I’m perfectly happy with that.

I don’t want to be one of those so called spiritual teachers who treat others badly while preaching unconditional love and forgiveness from the other side of my mouth. I don’t want to be that person who doesn’t take responsibility for my own actions.  And if I do screw up, I want to be able to find the grace to recognize my mistakes and not repeat them without a bookcase falling on my head. Not an easy balance in this 3d world.

I also came to realize that being distracted with too much 3d will keep me rooted in 3d. We all will get to 5d at our own pace, but what I have learned is that I will get there much faster by focusing on 5d and focusing on myself first and sharing my own experiences rather than “performing” for others out of spiritual and metaphysical entertainment.

Thinking that you will attain enlightenment and transit into 5d simply because you are working in service is an illusion. Enlightenment is within the heart and can only be achieved through self-love and respect; by always standing in your own truth. It involves removing blocks and integrating traumatized shards of our soul that have separated from the truth and light. When you do the work, you suddenly “get it,” and you can then share that truth.

When you “get it”, your thoughts and actions seem to ooze truth and you become a shining beacon of light. You strive to treat others as if they were you.  Hmmm…..maybe Christ did have a point with that whole “love your neighbor” thing.

You can no longer be triggered (as much – lol) and if you are triggered, you forgive and strive to keep going, learning each time how to react a different way. And, sometimes you just have to remove yourself from those who are not willing to work on their own projections.

You cannot enter 5d without mastering 3d. Mastering 3d means to be in a stillness within your heart, and that ironically means spending time with yourself and facing all that is not in alignment with love. It can be ugly because it means being truthful with yourself. It’s the most difficult task we can do, and just when we think that we are there, we will have an experience showing us just how much work we still need to do. The work continues until we merge with God once again.

Become who you really are, not what you think others want you to be, and you will draw just the right people into your reality that will support your personal timeline shift as well as contribute to the collective consciousness.

So to sum this all up for you if your head is spinning. Here are the Cliff’s Notes.


I’m writing again.

I can’t promise how often I will write.

If you can’t hang with that then you are not supposed to learn from me – I’m cool with that.

I’ve changed this blog site to more of a website and hope to do some interesting things in the future. Right now it’s a work in progress.

I’ve decided to do readings and healings from this site. I can do these in person, by telephone or by video chat. Please click on the “Readings and Healings” heading at the top of the site and then “Contact Me” to make an appointment.

I have created a Facebook Page called Cup of Kismet which will link back to this website.  I will make postings there regularly.

My guides told me this would work much better for me because I can still reach people with my thoughts and inspirations without having to constantly write an entire blog post.

Please feel free to comment or ask a question on any post.  I would love if you would share.

I would appreciate if you wouldn’t soft sell your services on my Facebook page but if you find a great shoe sale, please feel free to share!

If you are a reader, healer, artist, etc., please contact me privately.  I would love to promote you.   We are all unique at what we do. There is enough abundance in the Universe for all to prosper!

And last, I know you all miss me writing about my husband, Al.  He’s finally using the email address I created for him a few years ago. He still has trouble with forwarding and photo sharing so he tells everyone to text their pics to me. It really lowers my vibration seeing dead deer pics, building project photos, or rashes in strange places on my phone. I try not to look. I give him my phone so he can look at the pictures and then I hit delete.

On a positive note, Al would be proud to tell you that not only has he figured the app out all by himself but he has over 500 followers on Pinterest. His pins are a combination of Martha Stewart, Jeremiah Johnson and Doomsday Preppers. He keeps things interesting.





The Shadow Self: Loving Your Anger

“The shadow, said celebrated Swiss psychiatrist C.G. Jung,  is the unknown dark side of our personality. It is dark because it tends to predominantly consist of primitive or negative low based human emotions and impulses such as selfishness, greed, envy, anger or jealousy.” (sounds like a day at my office)

Due to the unenlightened nature of the shadow, these things are completely obscured from our consciousness.

Whatever we feel is evil, inferior or unacceptable and deny in ourselves, becomes part of the shadow; the counterpoint to what Jung called the persona or conscious ego personality.

The Freudian defense mechanism known as “projection” is how most people deny their shadow, unconsciously casting it onto others so as to avoid confronting it in oneself. Such projection of the shadow is engaged in not only by individuals but by groups, cults, religions, and other situations  in which the outsider, enemy or adversary is made a scapegoat, dehumanized, and demonized.  Sort of  what I like to call The Jewish Inquisition – the she-devil emerging from my grandmother when I would try to pass my Christian boyfriends off as nice Jewish boys. Oh how I loved to torment her.  My shadow and I were always well acquainted.

The shadow is most destructive, insidious and dangerous when habitually repressed and projected, manifesting in a myriad of psychological disturbances ranging from neurosis to psychosis, irrational interpersonal hostility, and even cataclysmic international clashes.

Wow, that sounds like Donald Trump, doesn’t it? No worries for Trump lovers though. I’m an equal opportunity hater. Trump may be psychotic but Hillary is insidious.  Hey, do you think she’s getting any? I doubt it. Maybe someone really needs to grab HER by the *****. You gotta know that Bill isn’t doing it. Crap, I promised my guides I wasn’t going to go there.   Sorry, my shadow made me do it!

(You know, originally writing this I actually used the word “pussy”. I realize it’s crude and all that but we’re all adults here.  I decided to use the ***** because I didn’t want people choking on their coffee. You’re welcome but it is what it is!)

The shadow or “shadow aspect” are those things about ourselves that we are not fully conscious of. Under this broad definition, such things may be positive or negative. However, generally the reason we are not conscious of such things is because they are the least desirable aspects of our personality.

So why open that can of worms?

To grow and learn more about ourselves.

If we don’t become intimate with our shadow it can control us and we can lose ourselves in its darkness.

From a spiritual perspective, to engage in shadow work is to encounter the shadow, confront it, understand how that bad boy operates, find its origins, accept it and assimilate into our conscious lives. This process helps to free us from destructive or self-sabotaging behaviors. It helps us come to terms with major life transitions, regain our confidence and grow.

The shadow is meant to be understood figuratively. It is not an evil inside of you or a split of your personality.  And I don’t care what my husband says – it’s not hormonal either.  There is nothing wrong with you. It is part of the human experience.

“Shadow work is a process of psychological integration by which we take greater responsibility for ourselves and our actions to achieve wholeness and balance.”

It allows us to embrace our weaknesses, find new strengths, be more compassionate and become more creative. It gives birth to an authentic spirituality.

Shadow work isn’t something you do once in a few hours or even a few days and then you’re done. It’s ongoing.  Ground yourself. Center yourself. Learn to be okay with not being finished. The nature of this work requires that it be put aside so you come back to it time and time again.

If you’ve never done this kind of work, start by asking yourself some key questions. You may not have clear answers for these questions and that’s okay. You might want to journal or meditate on them.

  • What don’t I want others to know about me? (I have vaginal dryness)
  • What do I tend to have a disproportionate reaction to? (Payless Shoes)
  • Which emotions am I uncomfortable expressing? (pretty much nothing is off limits)
  • What am I most scared to express in a relationship? (telling hubby how much my purse cost)
  • What traits in others really annoy you, wind you up or make you angry or frustrated? (people who leave the shopping cart in the parking lot at the grocery store)
  • What traits do you most admire in others? (men who put the toilet seat down)
  • Who do you look up to? Who are your idols? (not Michelle Obama)
  • What do you find yourself doing over and over “by accident”? (peeing my pants when I sneeze)
  • What is the worst insult someone can give you? (Hey look, Dana – you’re starting to get a turkey neck! – thanks mother)

All kidding aside, ask yourself these questions. Then ask yourself why. Ask yourself why a lot. Try to recall moments in your life when these feelings emerged and keep going back in time to try to find where it all began. I think you will find a lot of it is rooted in some childhood event.

When you have identified pieces of your shadow, you can do a meditation in which you meet it. Ask it its name. (Mine is banshee) Ask it questions. What is important to you? What do you want? What can I learn from you? How I can honor you? (buy me that pretty diamond necklace in the window)

Remember that this process is not about eliminating our shadow aspects. The purpose is to recognize it and accept it; establish a new awareness so it doesn’t control you any more.

Shadow work is a painful and lengthy process. There can also be a great sadness when we realize that what we thought was true about ourselves was just a defense against things we were afraid of. This will pass. When you emerge from the work, it will be as if a great burden has been lifted. You will find the rainbow and you will find yourself.

In my opinion, one of the mistakes that spiritual people make, is denial of the shadow self. Spiritual people are supposed to be all fluffy and zen like, breathing like we’re in labor and chanting “om” all day. Some people are of the opinion that “spiritual people” should be above reproach.  I call BULLSHIT! Don’t doubt my sincerity when I can’t live up to that expectation. Give me a break, I’m human and trying out this life the same way you are.

The shadow is the part of ourselves that we repress or deny, the part(s) which have gotten us into trouble or even embarrassed us in front of others. Anger is one of the most potent parts of the shadow.  We’ve learned over time to bury those facets of ourselves down deep so they never see the light again. We are taught to deny them, and we learn to be ashamed of them.

But those feelings don’t go anywhere and they are not dormant either. They stir and bubble under the surface, later showing up in the body as discomfort or pain; even disease. They fester within us energetically, and then they begin to manifest physically.  They ache to be released. But what does that mean?

Some part of you is angry and rages. That is your fire. That is the seat of your power and, that is the place where the transformation will take place. That is your alchemy, your invitation for change and renewal. Anger and rage can be tools for spiritual growth. Allow yourself to experience them in a safe way and most importantly, integrate them into something more productive in your life. If you’re angry and you know it, change your life!  Channel that fire into something productive and move on!

One of the very personal lessons that I am currently learning in life is that people who cross your path, even those closest to you, have anger and rage issues that manifests in different ways.  Try to understand that most rage really isn’t about you –  try not to take it personally. (Easier said than done, I know, believe me, I know)

Most of the displays of rage you will see from others in your life are projections onto you because you are mirroring something to them that they struggle to process. (Did you get that? 🙂 – If not, read it again because it’s important. As my grandfather would say, “let it penetrate.” 🙂 ) Love you, Poppy. Thank you for watching over me.

I think the greatest gift we can give ourselves in this life is complete and total loving acceptance of who we are. We are the good, the bad; the ugly. We are the happy and the sad, we are the kind and the unkind, the forgiving, unforgiving and the unforgiven. We are the lost and the found. We are the dark and light, both of which we cannot live without.

I urge you to take those skeletons out of the dark recesses of your mind and no longer allow them to jump out and scare you. Ask yourself, what part of myself is most unknown to me? Look at those things. Examine them. Talk to them. Dissect them and soothe them.  Work to express these things. Create. Journal. Meditate. Once you do this, they will lose the power to sneak up and surprise you. It is better to meet them on your terms.

May your rage and anger become your gift of enlightenment.

And so it is.










The Path of Least Resistance – I’m Back!

Resistance. It’s a certainty that what you resist, persists. This is one of the reasons  I’m back.  I’m taking the path of least resistance. Writing is a part of my soul and it seems as though I am not complete unless I am doing it.

It’s awesome to feel the keys tap-tapping under my fingers.  Hearing them is even musical. I mostly listen to 70’s rock or some cool meditation stuff when I’m at work.  (Check out Abraham-Hicks).

I would do just about anything to drown out the sound of my co-worker’s incessant Barry Manilow music.  I’ve heard Barry hit the high note about 17 times today with the same song. My goodness, his balls must be killing him by now.  (not nearly as much as my ears are killing me, I’m sure)

When know-it-all, busy-body, church lady (co-worker) starts singing, humming, whistling and stomping her feet to Barry’s songs, I become instantly clairvoyant. I begin having visions of grabbing my stapler and glue and permanently shutting her up. The visions are so real and they fill me with such joy!  Oh, please!  I can meditate and burn incense and still be a bitch. I’m just exploring the “shadow side” of myself.  We will definitely get into that in a future post.

So, where have I been, right?  It’s been a long time.  I know some of you might be a little pissed with me. I understand and I’m really sorry.  Others have warmed my heart with personal pleas to start writing my blog again. To this I respond with heartfelt gratitude for your love for me. You all know who you are. Love from many sources has been one of the things that has sustained me in these last many months.

I’ve been going through a very difficult time, personally. No, Al didn’t leave me. I wish the haters (another story) would just understand that he’s not going anywhere – that ball and chain is rusted to his skinny ass.  And, thank God, no one is sick or died.  I did, however, feel sick in my heart for the longest time. In many ways l am mourning a loss.  I don’t know that I’ll ever recover from it.  I’m not able to discuss the details but suffice it to say that I felt like I died.

With raw honesty, I am going to tell you that there was a point where I’m not sure that I didn’t maybe toy with the idea of death. Just a little. What a scary place that was!  Thank God for those organic kettle chips and mocha chip frozen yogurt bars that I had been using for pain relief.   I couldn’t stop eating them.   They saved my life although I did gain 8 lbs.  Poor Al, every time I would start to cry he would run to the grocery store for more chips and yogurt bars. He didn’t know what else to do for me.  I was quite the hot mess.

This past June, I went on an amazing spiritual journey to immerse in the vortex energies of Sedona, Arizona.  My sister accompanied me along with some friends who I had only chatted with on the internet but never met in person. Some day I will write about that magical journey but now I just want to say that the time I spent in Sedona was beyond amazing. It was also the beginning of my path to healing.

Day by day I’ve gotten a little better, a little stronger. I’ve come to terms with very dark and painful things. I didn’t even realize that for years, I had been avoiding these things.  One day, they got out of control and there was no choice but to finally turn and face them.  You see, what you resist, persists.

The human spirit is amazing. Once the will to survive takes over, the healing begins to take place.  Once the decision is made to move forward no matter the circumstance, the dynamics change. When you finally understand that there are just some things you can’t change no matter how badly you want it, your perspective shifts. You are left with no choice but to move forward.

So there I was standing on this cliff. I looked back at everything in my life that I thought was real but now understand that my reality had been very distorted.  I took the path of least resistance and I jumped off of that cliff.

I grew new wings in mid-flight and I was lifted to a higher place.  I could see the light once more. It was different but it was light nonetheless. I can’t yet explain that difference. I’m still trying to get used to these new wings and this new light but I know that I will.  I guess you could say that my path took a new path.  At first, this wasn’t my choice but it then BECAME my choice. These feelings are very difficult to articulate so I hope I’m making sense to you.

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood and all that crap from high school wasn’t really crap at all.  Thank you, Robert Frost. Perhaps you were teaching the past of least resistance.

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both  (well not exactly but I’ll go with it)
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,  (not really fair or fair but not much choice)
And having perhaps the better claim, (no)
Because it was grassy and wanted wear; (no)
Though as for that the passing there (sad I’m not the only person on this road)
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day! (wishing will never take me back)
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back. (this is why dreams were made)
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
 I realize I’m probably the only one sitting here crying. I’m sure you’re just trying to figure out what the hell I just said, right? That’s okay. If  this lesson is for you then you will understand it.
So, did you learn anything today besides my life sucked for awhile and I had to put on my big girl pants?
And guess what? Sometimes I just pretend I’m sad so Al will go out and buy me kettle chips and yogurt bars.  Hehe! 🙂

Until soon and with lots of love,



I forgot to mention that every time Al went to the store to buy my yogurt bars, he  bought himself “a little” ice cream too.   He also had to have the bananas, chocolate chips, hot fudge and whip cream to go with it.  Oh and let’s not forget the chocolate cake he layered on the bottom of this sugar mountain.

I may have gained 8lbs. but he now has man boobs. I’m guessing they are around an A cup.  I know this is way more information than you needed to know but in the spirit of the path of least resistance, telling you this is making me laugh.  So glad Al doesn’t read this blog. 🙂




Holy Smokes – Does Incense Get You High?

Did you ever notice that unique calm you experience from the smell of incense?  Sort of feels like a “high,” right? Well, scientists are now suggesting that the smoke from some incense can relieve the symptoms of anxiety and depression and produce an overall calm effect. Surprise. Surprise. Stoners have been saying that for years.  Really, it doesn’t take a scientist to figure out that if you burn the right plant resin you will get high.

“Incense represents a way to experience a particular plant through it’s smoke”.

Nicely put but it still sounds like getting high to me.  I wonder what would happen if I left my Xanax at home and got on an airplane with incense cones plugged in my nose?

I love to burn incense. Frankincense is one of my favorites. It has a very pungent, sweet smell and is a fantastic mood enhancer (second to Prozac).  It can help to dispel fear and promote healthier thoughts as well as self-confidence. It is a valuable tool in cleansing and clearing the mind of negative chatter. It can open up our intuition to help create a greater relationship with God, Source, the Universe, All That Is or whatever name you feel in alignment with giving to this powerful connection.

I often use Frankincense for meditation. Its uplifting aroma is perfect for grounding and connecting to spirit which is why it is has been used in churches and religious rituals throughout history.

As a gift to the child, Jesus, the three Magis brought gold, frankincense and myrrh to Nazareth. Each of these gifts had practical as well as symbolic meaning. The gold was meant to represent the status of Jesus as a king. While gold brings comfort, (for a Jewish girl nothing brings me more comfort than a jewelry store full of glittering and sparkly gold) frankincense and myrrh have been used throughout history as aids for spiritual transcendence and peace; to manifest Heaven on Earth.

As a gift for Jesus, Frankincense was included because it symbolized the priesthood of Jesus and his divinity; his stature as a spiritual leader and teacher.  It is known to help us to detach from that which doesn’t have deeper spiritual meaning, such as over attention to materialism (like jewelry stores – which is one reason I burn it or I’d be broke), therefore helping us to better integrate with our Higher Self.

Frankincense is most often burned with Myrrh.  Myrrh is known to unite Heaven and Earth within each person, blending the spiritual with the physical.  Myrrh was given to Jesus symbolically to represent his humanity and ultimately, his death and burial.

I also like to burn dragons blood. No dragons are ever harmed when extracting this incense. This red colored resin is actually obtained from certain plants and has been used since ancient times as incense, dye and also for medicinal purposes.

My husband, Al, recently began a meditation practice. For those of you who consistently read my blog, you know that Al is a bit “quirky.” He read on “the internet” (so it must be true) about how incense can enhance the meditation experience. Al is like a dog with a bone when he gets an idea in his head.  The area that we live in doesn’t have too many metaphysical shops which makes it a bit difficult to get good incense locally.  The closest shop to me is about 40 minutes so if you run out of incense and you’re jonesing for it, you could be in trouble. (If I’m really in a bind, I will go into my spice cabinet, take out some rosemary and light it up!)

Fortunately, Al has solved that problem by stocking up on our favorite incense aromas. Here is a sample of our personal collection and trust me, there’s more on the way. Al can’t resist an “add on” item from Amazon.


Speaking of shopping addictions………….

I think I’ve mentioned before how Al is like a kid in a candy store when it comes to the internet.  Those little ads that pop up and offer you items “for only $4.95 shipping” trigger something in his brain and he can’t control himself.

Al:     Honey, I tried to buy you a present today.

Me:   Really, you drove 2 hours to Nordstrom to pick up that bracelet I wanted?

Al:     No, even better.

Me:    Oy. What did you do now?

Al:     You know how you always say you don’t like the wrinkle on your neck?

Me:   The wrinkle? You mean where my neck looks like one of those Chinese Shar-Pei dogs?

Al:    Well, I got you a present to fix it.

Me:   You told me you didn’t notice the wrinkle.

Al:    I don’t but it really seems to bother you so I thought I would  help.

Me:  Okay, I’m scared. What did you do?

Al:    When I was on the internet this ad popped up. It was offering this miracle wrinkle cream for only $4.95 shipping – a free trial. So, I bought it for you.

Me:     You bought it for me, huh?

Al:     Yep, but here’s the weird thing.  I got denied by the company.

Me:   The wrinkle cream company denied you? What did you do, send them my picture?

Al:    It just said my order was declined.

Me:   So what did you do?

Al:    I ordered it again.

Me:  And?

Al:   It was declined again.

Me:  (taking a deep breath) Al, I’m willing to bet that the wrinkle cream company didn’t “decline” you.  I’m sure it was our credit card company declining the charge because this shit is a SCAM!

Al: (obviously hurt and upset)  What do you mean? It is not. The ad showed before and after photos of women who used the cream. There were also written testimonials. And, I thought you would really like it because it has all natural ingredients.  Plus, I read the fine print – no strings attached.

Me:   Well, now that they have our credit card number I’m sure we’ll start getting monthly shipments.

Al:    No, I’m telling you. It wasn’t a scam. I don’t know why you’re so mad. I was just trying to do something nice for you.

Me:   I’m not mad. I’m highly amused.

I’m sure you all are dying to know what happened, right?  Later that night I was checking my email and found two emails from our bank asking us if we made these charges to the wrinkle cream company.  Sigh. Fortunately, the charges were declined as possibly “fraudulent” and the bank  was letting me know this out of courtesy.

I checked our card account and didn’t see any charges. End of story. No harm no foul.  (Al, I swear I’m going to put parental controls on your Ipad).

A week later my “wrinkle cream” arrived in the mail. Al was so excited I thought he was going to pee himself.  He handed it to me proudly with an “I told you so look”.

I opened the package. I think you can see from the picture what the natural ingredient is…..Snake venom! Really? Yes, really. You can’t make this stuff up. (I better call the credit card company again)


Al:  Are you going to try it?

Me:   Um, no.

Al:    Why not?

Me:   You want me to put snake venom on my face and neck? I don’t even see a list of other ingredients on the package. So no, I’m not going to use it; I’m going to blog about it.

Al:   Well how about if I use it on my neck first?

Me:   Sure, go ahead. I just paid your life insurance premium.

Stay tuned.















Conversing with Nature Spirits – yes, Fairies!


Fairy_Land_wallpaperWe have a little problem with Wolf spiders at my house.  Yeh, I never heard of them either until I moved to Western Pennsylvania.  The Wolf spiders that hang out at my house are large, black and ugly but they really can’t help what they look like. (My husband is white, skinny and has a bald spot but I don’t hold that against him. Well, not in the dark anyway -grins)

I don’t like the idea of killing another living being so when these spiders and other little “pests” invade my home, I try the most natural approach possible in order to coax them to leave (or at least go down in the basement and hide in the walls where I can’t see them).  My basement was really wet when we bought the house. We literally had a small creek running through it. Frogs took up residence down there. I really think Al just wanted to brag that we had “waterfront property” and that he could go fishing in his bathrobe and slippers whenever he wanted.  Actually, he does that anyway.  Hey, he has to answer to the police – not me. I’ll spend the bail money on some tchotchke for my very own self.

It’s absolutely ESSENTIAL to know what a tchotchke is if you’re a Jewish girl or dating one. It’s pronounced “choch-ke.” A tchotchke is a completely non-functional item such as a gorgeous piece of jewelry, (I personally like David Yurman) or even a Ming Dynasty vase. It’s one of those things you buy when you’re a little depressed or feel bloated and are desperately in need of retail therapy. Or, if you’re like my grandmother, a tchotchke is an ugly, blue ceramic rooster. OMG, my family should have put that stupid rooster in the casket with her. She spent years promising each one of us that we could have that prized possession of hers on the day she died. No one wanted it. Good Will even sent it back to us. That’s how ugly this freaking thing was. 


Al’s solution for removing the spiders from our house is a can of Raid. My solution is peppermint oil and, and having a chat with the nature spirits. You know, nature spirits? Fairies? Yes, I said fairies. I do, I do, I do believe in fairies!  I’m really coming out of the spiritual closet here.  I can’t even imagine what some of my old school friends are thinking if they’re creeping on my Facebook and reading my blogs.  Wow! That Dana was strange back in high school. She’s a real head case now! Whatever. Screw em.

I find that having a little chat with the fairies and asking them to keep the spiders outside or Fairy_Wallpaper_c_HD_Johnson_MMV_0031_copydown the basement has been super helpful. Every now and then I get a renegade spider in the bathtub. If that happens, I just capture it in a paper cup, put it outside and once again coax the fairies (more like bribe them with chocolate) to keep the spiders out.  (Al gets really pissed when I steal his Hershey Kisses for the fairies)

Sometimes the fairies get a good giggle seeing me have a melt down in the morning when I find a spider in the tub. They really enjoy having fun at my expense. So, when those hilarious little fairies let the spiders sneak in to tease me, I use peppermint oil to make the bathing experience of the spiders completely undesirable. I mix the peppermint oil with water and put it in a spray bottle. No chemicals. Happy fairies. Happy me and a very amused husband.

Nature Spirits are metaphysical beings who inhabit and work with the energies of the non-physical worlds such as the astral plane. They are involved in every aspect of life and in every natural process. They are charged with guarding Mother Earth and are often wary of human beings. Sometimes they are unfriendly toward humans because of the damage we have done to their beloved Earth. If you find a friendly fairy like Tinkerbell, (but real) they can become our powerful co-workers, co-creators and companions.

The surface of the Earth is overflowing with an almost incomprehensible variety of these non-physical beings, each having its own special functions to perform. Nature spirits are part of a hierarchy of life that begins with the angels and filters down through the spiritual planes into manifestation in the physical world. Nature spirits are a part of Earth’s landscape. They are part of the rocks, the soil, the oceans and lakes. They preside over areas of woodland and fields or cultivated areas such as gardens. They direct the activities of all natural processes within their sphere of influence. They emit the necessary impulses for the harmonious functioning of the natural Earth formations and the flora in their care. Nature spirits are inseparable from the four elements and are an essential part in the creation process of all living things. Their every action is filled with joyful celebration as they help to shape the part of the environment they are charged with caring for.

We can learn to perceive these magical beings by learning to develop our “clair” senses such as clairvoyance (clear seeing), clairaudience (clear hearing) and clairsentience (clear feeling).  This can be achieved through meditation and practice as well as a true desire to connect with the things we cannot see but, know to be there. In other words – ya just gotta believe!

Recognition and acknowledgement from human beings assists nature spirits in the growth of their consciousness and awareness. This is a means by which we can contribute to the spiritual evolution and elevation of our world. Many nature spirits bask in our admiration of their plants or the areas they tend. Even if a human being cannot see them, just knowing and believing the nature spirits are here with us, gives energy, life and power to them so that they can do their work for the world.

Throughout history, humans have sought to describe the fairy realm in stories, songs, and images. Yet, these are only shadows of the deep and complex reality of the “other worlds.”  In our modern world there are many who ridicule those who “believe in faeries,” yet those who do not experience the fairy realm have simply forgotten their natural ability to perceive beyond the veil of the physical world.

Do you really think our ancestors were making all this stuff up?fairyWallpaper

Unfortunately, our collective lack of awareness of these otherworldly inhabitants has brought about a trivialization of faeries as well as a rampant disregard for the spirits of nature and nature herself. It is my belief that we need to reconnect with faerie, plant, animal, mineral, and elemental beings in mutual respect so that we may restore harmony and balance to our minds and bodies, as well as healing to the many areas of our planet that we have damaged.

I can see fairy energy. To me, the energy looks like little white sparkles that bubble and pop all around me. (yes, I’ve had my eyes checked) I can feel the presence of the fairies. I see flashes of color as they quickly move around me.  Fairies vibrate on a frequency which is much higher than the frequency on which we vibrate on Earth. In order to see, feel and hear the fae you have to be able to raise your vibration to get close to their vibration or, they have to lower their vibration to get closer to our vibration.

It takes a good deal of energy and trust on the part of the nature spirits to make this happen.  Fairies can be quite shy and as I’ve said, wary of humans. I let them know that I am a friend to the Earth and mean them no harm. That’s when the fairies insisted I start to recycle. (Me and my loud thoughts – it ain’t easy being an intuitive) And, it’s not just my  trash they make me recycle.  I pick up trash wherever I go. I never thought I would be a trash minion for fairies. Hopefully your hobby is better than mine.

Mommy! Mommy! there’s that crazy neighbor lady with the trash bag walking around again and talking to the air. She’s picking stuff up off of the ground. Eww, Gross!

Shut up kid or I’ll send my spiders to invade your Scooby Doo underwear.

You can always find fairies around plants, animals and children. Fairies love to sing and dance. They play tirelessly so they naturally gravitate to children who often see them with eyes that have not yet become jaded.  Have you ever considered that the “imaginary friends of children aren’t so imaginary after all?

I’m sharing my beliefs in the hope that more people become willing to make it known that they believe in fairies.  This will give others courage to share that they too, believe in the fae. Hopefully, more people will “come out” of the spiritual closet.

Be right back……….doorbell ringing………….let me peek out the window………

Oh bother! Those pesky men in the white coats are here AGAIN!!!!

I wish those damn neighbors would mind their own business.





Mantras: Bring Balance and Joy into your Life

Thanks to my  husband, Al, I now have a wonderful sacred space where I can practice my mantras and lose myself in blissful meditation.  (Read my last blog if you want to know how this sacred space came about.)

The meditation “closet” is equipped with an ancient “radio/CD” player that Al installed so I could enjoy music with my meditation practice.  Yes, really – an actual AM/FM Radio/CD player that’s at least 15 years old.  It really comes as no surprise. Al won’t give up his flip phone and texts at a pace of 10 letters per minute. I really should be grateful that he uses the flip phone. If he had his way he would be carrying one of those cell phone suitcase things from 1990. He saw one at a flea market and wanted to buy it because it was $2.00. If I try to explain streaming or downloading music to him a glaze comes over his eyes.  He’s totally not interested. He’d be happy with a Victrola.

Oh and while we’re on the topic of cell phones, let me offer a piece of advice. If you are the self-conscious type and you find yourself at the mall with Al, encourage him to leave his phone in the car. He talks into that cell with a voice that can break the sound barrier. I’ve watched friends and family members scatter in embarrassment when he’s having a conversation on his phone.  His voice easily reverberates from Macy’s all the way down the the mall corridor, through the food court and around the corner to Nordstrom. It doesn’t bother me anymore, however. I just walk in front of him and pretend I don’t know him. It’s not like he will ever get lost with that cacophony coming from his mouth.

So back on topic –  I just read a new book that’s helped me with my meditation practice as well as my ongoing practice of The Law of Attraction.  The book is called Easy Breezy Prosperity and is written by Emmanuel Dagher. I highly recommend it. Here’s the link to Amazon where I purchased it. http://www.amazon.com/Easy-Breezy-Prosperity-Foundations-Abundant/dp/1623366216/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1453218693&sr=8-1&keywords=easy+breezy+prosperity

And……….here is my Amazon Review of “Easy Breezy Prosperity”

I have been reading/listening to Emmanuel Dagher for over a year now. His insight is simplistic but amazingly brilliant. This man really resonates with me. You can feel the love emanating from him as his words jump from the book directly into your heart. The book is an easy “how to” manual to bring prosperity of all kind into your life. The exercises are easy and enriching – a fabulous tool for self-learning. My favorite thing about the book are the mantras for prosperity that Emmanuel introduced. I did some research to clarify some questions I had and I learned even more about mantras. Mantras have added a whole new and amazing dimension to my meditation practice. Thank you, Emmanuel, for your book but most importantly, thank you for dedicating your beautiful spirit to the uplifting of all humanity.

So what is a mantra and how are you supposed to use it? 

A mantra is powerful sound vibration of the mind that you can use to enter a deep state of meditation.  When used carefully, mantras are said to be able to alter your subconscious impulses.  When spoken or chanted they can direct the healing power of Prana (life force energy) to bring about healing as well as a more peaceful and balanced lifestyle.

You don’t have to be a Buddhist or a Hindu to practice mantras and you can chant in whatever language rings your bells.  Many people choose to use Sanskrit mantras. (Sanskrit is the primary ancient sacred language of Hindu) The main reason Sanskrit is used is because these sacred words have been spoken over and over again for thousands of years and contain a very powerful and positive universal vibrational energy.

om-symbol-d76076039A common Sanskrit mantra is Om or Aum.  In fact, the Om symbol is considered a mantra in its own right.  We’ve all heard this word called “Om”. But, what is it and what does it mean? If you chant it does it somehow magically transform you into a Buddhist? ( I don’t think so but stranger things have happened so don’t quote me on this one)

Om is an ancient Sanskrit “word” that was first felt by Rishis (Hindu poets, seers and sages – just like me but definitely not Jewish {grins}) as they meditated. It was more about the essence of Om rather than the chanting of it. Eventually as the experience was shared, the actual word came forth and people started chanting it to receive the experience of it. So, exactly what is the experience of Om?

Om is a vibration so it is difficult to describe with words. Om represents everything. Om is said to be the seed of all of creation.  This seemingly tiny word contains all the power of the Universe. It is the beginning, middle and the end. It’s the past, present and future. Chanting Om brings into your awareness the subtle impressions of the mind and emotions and the thoughts and beliefs of your life and this world.  When written this way, (AUM) it appears as if the sound has three parts.

The A (aahh) sound represents the creation aspect of the Universe and all of the objects within it. Aahhh is the beginning of all sounds. It connects us to our sense of self. With this syllable  you experience the existence of the world  through the activity of the senses. It starts in the back of the throat and reaches down to the lower abdomen. It brings unity and truth to your existence.

The U (oooh) sound signifies maintaining the energy of the Universe. It connects us to an inner sense of something greater than what we feel with our senses. Oooh lets in light, clarity and balance. This sound vibrates in the solar plexus and denotes illumination of knowing and pure wisdom.

The M (mmmm) sound characterizes the transforming energy of the Universe and the thoughts and beliefs of your being. This sound unites you to the awareness of wholeness with all that is.  The sound vibrates in the crown of the head. It symbolizes being blissful; at one and peaceful with all things.

The experience of Om is multifaceted.  Om is called the seed of sound, the original sound from which all other sounds and words come from. Om is said to represent God, Bhraman, Source and Universal Consciousness – it has the power to create everything.
When chanting Om aloud, the sound will naturally evolve through the three phases corresponding to the three letters A-U-M.  You can liken the experience of Om as a sense of completeness and pure consciousness. The three syllables are not distinct or separate phases, but a continuous motion of the body, breath and awareness.

The true power of Om, however, really does lie in the experience of it. Reading this can help the mind understand but it can’t help you to feel the vibration. Chant Om by yourself or, for a more powerful experience, chant it with a group. I also sit down in the lotus position and start to chant Om whenever Al is invading my space and I want him out.  Works every time.

Allow the experience of Om to be absorbed into your being. Allow the vibrations to clear and cleanse your energy system and your chakras.

Om is an amazing tool that people of all faiths can utilize to bring focus and awareness to the greater meaning of life. You can find wholeness and healing in this mantra.

51q+iJ40DvL._UY395_When I’m not wearing my diamond tiara, (my grandmother always told me that less is more) I wear the OM symbol on a chain around my neck  to remind me each day of all that I am

For those of you who have asked, I will answer the burning question from my last blog post. Yes, Al is now meditating. So he says. I  haven’t really seen him do it so I can’t be absolutely certain. We did, however, have an interesting conversation that I’d like to share with you.

Al:     Does Wal-Mart sell incense?

Me:   What kind of incense?

Al:    Frankincense and Myrrh.

Me:  Sure, in their New Age section right next to “housewares.” Everyone knows that.

Al:   Really?

Me:  No.

Al:   Seriously, is there a place to buy incense around here or do I have to get it from Amazon?

Me: Well instead of stinking up the whole closet with incense and making my clothes and shoes smell like I’m smoking weed or something, we can just get some little candles in those scents. You can light those when you meditate.

Al:  No, I want the smoke from the incense. The frankincense will elevate me spiritually while the myrrh will bring the astral realms closer and bring my manifestations to fruition.

My head almost twisted off looking at him. Who is this freak of a husband of mine? First he learns how to use a computer. Then he starts shopping on Amazon. Now he’s burning incense and meditating? For years, people have been calling him “Jeremiah Johnson.”  You know the type of man I mean, right? Am I somehow responsible for breaking Al’s spirit?  I swear if he  asks for a smart phone for Christmas I’m going to call in a Shaman.




Just so you know, I have no affiliation with Emmanual Dagher or Easy Breezy Prosperity. I just happen to really like Emmanual and his book.

Oh and wait……..I’m getting a message from my dead lawyer. He says I should put a disclaimer in this post about NOT burning incense or candles in the closet.  Please don’t be offended. He means well. Lawyers just think everyone is stupid..