Well, I got my first post written last week. I’m out of the spiritual closet; maybe not completely out because this blog isn’t reaching many people yet but the door is off the hinges and my pedicured toes are sticking out. Yes, I said pedicured. No respectable Jewish girl ever goes anywhere sans shoes unless her toe nails are polished. My maternal grandmother would kill me if she saw me doing yoga with calloused feet.
Oh and you read it correctly the first time. I did say “Jewish”. I’m also an ordained interfaith spiritual minister. Not cool if you’re a Jew. If my paternal grandmother was still in the physical world, she’d be tearing at her clothes and going into mourning for the “shonda” I brought to the family name. (A “shonda in Yiddish means to do something publicly shameful because, as the theory goes, we are all held accountable for the worst deeds of all of us.) Hopefully this little confession gave you a clue as to why my spiritual journey turned inward.
I have about a million things running through my mind that I want to share with all of you. I’m trying not to over think this process and just let it happen. This requires patience. I don’t know how much meditation I would have to do to attain this virtue but “I AM” working on it. The “I AM” reference is definitely a blog for another day but I can’t help it when my thoughts jump out of my head, run around and trip on each other. You’ll find this to be a common theme in my writing.
It’s every blogger’s aim to be liked and followed. Despite my guilt filled upbringing, it’s always been my opinion that it’s really none of my business what anyone else thinks of me. This is something I try to live by so I’m a little conflicted with this blogging process. On the other hand, I decided to step up and truly live what I speak in terms of who I am and what I do. When I developed this blog, I decided to put myself “out there” (although some would say I’m already “out there” ((grins)) but in keeping with my philosophy, who cares?
I understand that what I have to say won’t resonate with everyone. I’m okay with that. I spent too many years trying to please the unpleasable. Now I just want to live life as my authentic self.